What happens when you try to please everyone?

Darn hard to be on the good side of everyone, isn't it? I am a kind of person who feels really bad when i am on the "bad list" that is created mentally by people. But this is life and it is impossible to please everyone that you meet. But it is incredibly hard when the person that you have hurt is a close friend and someone you look up to for a really really long time. My pride prevents me from reaching out and extending an olive branch to that person. DO i let time and space heal this incident or do i open a can of worms??

Life has it's little bumps and speed breakers, but at the end of the day... Life is short, it is but a fleeting moment in the whole picture of the history of the World. My time on Earth is nothing but a speck of dust. So, live while you can, cause you never know when you are gonna wake up one day and find a lump in your liver, or a strange patch on your body... Do not have regrets... So, with that in mind, let me go and apologize... :)

Man!! I have to learn to get my temper under control... Note to self: Counting helps sometimes...

I love life...

Friendship and the thin line that separates it

I recently watched "When Harry met Sally". Is it true that a man and a woman cannot be friends without sex getting in the way??

I don't know. I was an introvert when i was young so i had a lot of difficulty making new friends. I am not much of an extrovert even now but am improving :)
I had a few close friends (all girls) all through my school days. It was only when i was in Higher Secondary School that i started talking to boys and made friends with them. We used to be this two bunch of friends - girls and boys who used to hang out together in a group. It was great in the beginning and then there was some chemistry between certain members and what followed was a few "going steady" couples from our lot.

I admit that i was one of these couples although it was mostly a long distance one for about half a year. I also admit that he still remains the only boyfriend i have ever had in my life, my first (but not the only) kiss and the only one who has given me his ring.. Sighh.. those were the days.

While going through some stuffs some days back, i found this particular ring from him hidden away among some knick-knacks. It is a silver ring (my first silver ring) with a yin-yang symbol. It was quite black when i found it but after a quick wash with salt, it shone as bright as new. it still fits perfectly on my middle finger. It was quite a coincidence that this boy/man happened to talk to me on facebook chat a few days ago. he brings back memories of days when there was so much hope and carefree living. I cannot say that he was my first love because i don't think it was love, but i did and do care for him. I pray for him most of the time (he is going through a certain rough time in his life) and i hope that he gets a chance to live his life the way he deserves. I miss him and his oh-so-cute smile and his mole above the lips :)
I wish him well. I hope he finds his path and follows it the best he can.

Then there is the guy who is a really good friend of mine who carries a torch for me. i am not sure how to deal with this. i need help but where do i go to? i try my best to ignore this and keep the normalcy between us and retain our friendship. i talk as if nothing has changed. i respect his courage to come up and tell me how he feels but i know that i can never look at him in "that" way... he is such a dear friend and i do not want to lose him.

Then there is that really awesome, "lerh" friend of mine with whom i have made a pact. if neither of us is married by the time we are 40 years old, we will get married.. hahahaha.. he is my bestest friend (among boys) and i tell him things i would never tell my girl friends. he scolds me when i need to be kept straight and sides with me when i need him by my side. You rock, M :D

Then there is this friend who came to me with one of the biggest problems i have ever heard of but he came out of that pretty well. But the relationship that we have is complicated. I like him, he likes me but there is a huge, gigantic, gorge-like distance that will forever keep us apart. I feel guilty just thinking about it and knowing that it will never be.. Well, that's life..
"You can't always get what you want".. how bizarre..

Well, i have a lot more to say but what the hell.. this is all i can manage right now.. 

Memories

How is it that some of us have such feeble memories while some have memories so sharp that they are able to remember things which happened when they were like four or five years old?

Well, i happen to know someone who has a really awesome memory, who can recall things which happened in his childhood with such clarity you would not believe... Me.. i have a problem remembering names and places, directions and things to do, basically i have a "short term memory loss" :)

One of my cousins used to say that forgetfulness is just an excuse for people who do not pay much attention or who do not give much importance to things. She says that we do not forget the birthday of that someone special or the doctor's appointment that is scheduled for an important check-up. But this is not the case for me..

Memory is a tricky thing. There are times when i retell a story that i had heard and relate it as if it happened to me. There are times when i feign forgetfulness to get out of an unwanted situation. there are times when i fake that i remember someone when they re-introduce themselves to me when i am completely lost as to who they are.

Ahhh.. memory.. It can be a curse as well as a gift.. You just have to make it and mould it into something..

WHoaaa!! :)

Well... Hello there :)
I had no idea that it was so easy to get to my blog.. Duh!!
I have been a lazy bum who uses the excuse of doing something useful to get out of not writing a thing here. All that is about to change, my friend..

Gosh.. i have so many things to say but where to begin? Lemme begin with what's on my mind at the moment.. That's a great place to start right?

In the campus that i live on, we have a prayer meeting of my community every Friday where we share our thoughts and problems/happiness and pray together. We have songs sung and Bible passages read out and sometimes, people are assigned to share a few thoughts on the Bible, their life or whatever they feel is appropriate.. It's my turn to share my thoughts tomorrow and i have to say i have had a whole week to think about what i wanted to say... And i am such a procrastinator :p i have an idea of what i wanna say but i have not written it down yet.. SO here goes...

I wanted to talk about Ecclesiastes... You know.. the book (supposedly) by King Solomon, the wisest king who ever lived.. Well, it has twelve chapters and the refrain throughout the book is that everything is "meaningless". When one first reads the book of Ecclesiastes, he/she might feel that the world is a hopeless place to live.. I mean, here is King Solomon, a great and wonderful king telling everyone that everything is meaningless.. He himself mentions that he had everything that a man could ever desire.. He did not waste his time in procuring whatever his eyes desired, yet he did not find any satisfaction.. At the end of the day.. it all boils down to God, the Almighty.. You can have whatever you want and try to satisfy your hunger, your needs, your cravings and what-nots but at the end of the day, you are going to die.. It does not matter whether you are rich or poor, handsome or ugly, learned or ignorant.. the same fate awaits you.. Live life to the fullest but keep in mind that God will judge you in the end..

There is this phrase that i really like..
^3:11  He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

This is the King James Version... 

So.. this part of the Bible is a part that i really like and which i wanna share tomorrow (God willing).. Let's hope i don't bungle it up...

This is me signing off.. Hoping that i will be more regular on my blog

Ramblings

Well.. Got up pretty early today... Was still dark when i went to wash my face.. On any other day i would have been sound asleep but this morning i had to pick someone up at the airport so.. But i am not complaining at all.
I love the smell of early morning, that crisp breeze that teases you into holding on to your jacket and your muffler.. And to top it all off, the person that i went to the airport for turned out to be a really friendly person. I was a little afraid that we might run out of things to say but she was darn nice.. Our talk ranged from my interests, her work, Chinese traditional food, veganism, religion, her family..the list goes on... And she was funny too, which i had not expected because of the designation that had prejudiced my views of her.. Anyways...
On to other things... Life is always balanced out in a way.. I have believed in this philosophy for a while now.. I came back from the airport all jubilant and glowing but i found out that someone had stolen one piece of clothing that i had left on the clothes line.. It was not an expensive piece nor was it irreplaceable. But it gets on my nerve when someone can sink so low as to steal a piece of clothing..
However..Life is like that i guess.. You gain a friend, you lose some clothes :) It just depends on you which part of that you want to focus on.. I made up my mind that nothing would dampen my spirits today.. Am still in a good mood, but thinking up a way to punish the person who stole my things.. muahahaha....